ASP *End of the Beginning... Or maybe it's just the start of the end...*

Ahoy

It reads... 24th Yarn

"My lecturer looks like Adolf Hitler!!!" -ASP

hmmm, been so long since I've updated this dusty, waterlogged entry...

So much have happened, among friends, myself, the group, etc... So much to write... but memoriee are often more vivid than words... =)

Project Rigel, finally, it's over... well, wonderful experience for me. I was cradling like like my baby initially... but sometimes, when more people come to carry your baby, and it never seems to come back, somehow you will lose your belonging for it. During the process of evolution in the Project, I saw how it transformed from my baby, back to a simple minded embryo that doesn't seemed to grow out of it, so sad. But well, credits were taken away. Few recognised my efforts... I guess life's this way.. isn't it?

I thought it would be a free week for me... But NO. Next comes the Bukit Timah & Jurong District Cub Scout Campfire... ArGh, I'm the emcee again... Clown clown clowN.
Tired, lethargic, unprepared, flustered... Tristan and I went up the stage. Luckily the response was good, or superficially good. Well, you never know what the rest would say behind you... But all done with utmost sincerity from heart. All for the betterment of Scouting. =)

Another week came with Zouk and Splash Axis sports exhibition booth at Suntec Convention Centre... almost drained... A.L.M.O.S.T drained. It was at the booth when the idea of Cardinal 4 lit up. It's going to be a challenge especially when watersports are deemed dangerous due to some irresponsible water people always trying to bend the rules... Stakes are high, but returns, hoepfully, will be high too... in the next few years to come. Cardinal 4 - where experience are re-created, where friends are re-made... =)

Zouk was great.. *grins mischieviously* Waa... all the girls.. seems like transported back to when I always frequent clubs either for competitions or mingle around, grinding~ hehe... but didn't managed this time round cua youngsters nowadays are getting out of hand. No manners.. no dance floor etiquette.. must share right... oh my god.. stop hogging her to yourself like she's going to be your wife.. Screw it man~ Everybody does ONS back there, zZz..

Finally... The week's over.. again..no photographs. SiiAn blog. I thought I would be able to provide wonderful photographs once out at sea... Hopes are dashed. For some might not know, I'm called up. went to medical checkup, went to the MP for plea in deferment, went to cmpb YET again to clarify. But it seems mandatory that I have to go. Career Crash I would say. Now I have to withdraw from the course after my current semester. I seemed such a failure, just when I wanted to study and go sailing, all these shit happens. But then again, cannot blame on others. Only me, and only me to be blamed. **@&#&&*(&@*

Well... Just some updates for I really do not know what to update this time.. Life seems like a halt for me at the moment. Somehow lost? Been coming down hard on my brothers recently in Scouting... I hope you guys understand from my point of view in doing things. Thanks~

All RumS~ cheers =)

~signed off~

ASP *Lemme tell u something about my girlfriend...or fiancee =)*

Ahoy

It reads... 23rd Yarn

"Fellowship of the Open Air and Service..." - Ah Gong

Hmmm... how do I start...

Well, I knew her when I was 9 years old and it started out as friends when I wanted to know her more. My friends didn't quite know much about her as she was complicated and had a lot of ideas, so they did not really bother much about her. My teachers, on the other hand were quite supportive of me being with her because she has led me to become a nicer boy, to help elderly, my teachers, be nice to everybody. Only some of my friends who knew her better, had a lot of fun together with me... we always play together, went on excursions together and learnt a lot of things together... Life in the next 3 years were filled with good memories as I grew up together with her.

Soon, we had to leave our primary school and move on to secondary school.. the friends that used to play together with me and her left us and continued on with their own life and found better interests... and I was left alone with her. She told me "Do not give up on me because we've been through so much..." I promised her and sweared it with my heart... Since then, we were together... a couple... happily together with nothing that can come between us. We were so happy back in secondary school because we met a bunch of friends who knew her too... So we began our journey of adventure again... this time round, we decided to get to know the sea better...

With her pushing me from behind, I have been driving myself to excel in many ways. To satisfy myself and make her proud of me... All the way in secondary school, I have been moving up with no obvious obstructions... Till one day, the friends that both of us had, turned me off... I started to lose my faith in everything... and started to find a meaning in everything I do. But somehow, I couldn't... Soon, things started to turn bad with me and my girl. I started to turn away from my girl and soon found another her...

This time, the other her was different... I found a different meaning.. There so many friends that knew her before I did. But we had a lot of fun together... so, I broke off from my previous girl.. But I did not realised... slowly, slowly, she was bringing me down to an abyss which I did not know that I will be stuck in for quite some time... I started to gamble whenever I was with her. Perhaps, it was my bad because I did not know how to stop as she did tried to stop me. Soon, I gambled all my time and money away with her... and my relationship with my family turned sour...

Mom and Dad did not approve of my relationship with this girl... because it was really hurtful for them to see me turn into what I was at that point of time. But like people said, Love is blind. Well, I was practically blinded that time.. who cares anyway... until one day.. 2 years later.

I sat on my bed in my room.. thinking about my direction.. Am I really going to go on this way?
Then the girl who I knew when I was 9 came to my mind. I started to miss her.. started to think about what we did.. all the happy times that we had.. And the things she had taught me.. to be a better person. Suddenly, I thought, what I was doing wasn't what she had taught me to be.. Shame... Shame.. How shameful... I wanted to change.. But something about my current girl kept pulling me back. Until one day, the previous one came up to me... "You got to be determined.. to know what is right and what is wrong. I will be with you till the end..."

I woke up at that instance... I realised it was really my fault.. To give up on what I've sworn on. It was in no time, I went back to her.. She was forgiving. So forgiving I felt I was indebted for my life.. But she was my passion.. what I love. Maybe I should really keep to what i've promised and swore.. Slowly, my life changed again. My family was glad I turned back.

One day, she introduced me to her Ah Gong... someone who had been watching over me since the day I knew her.. He was there all along... just that I did not notice him. He was such an important figure, and he was inspiring. Naturally, I turned to him, turned to him whenever I am in trouble, turned to him whenever I faced a difficulty. He would always be there to bring me through everything, I started calling Ah Gong too. My relationship with her grew ever so strong, so sweet.. And I see her as my fiancee now...

I dunno how long will we be together now... But I could see a future.. She inspired me so much that it changed my life. Most importantly, she turned me into a better man. I could see life much clearer and better now.. though sometimes I do meet up with some hiccups. But don't worry.. Be happy =) Maybe after my NS, I would marry her for life.. and may Ah Gong bless us.. =)

Just a short story... Wondering who the girl is??? hahaha...

She's... Scouting =)

Be Prepared

-signed off-

ASP *Maybe things will turn out Just be the same... =S*

Ahoy

It Reads... the 22nd YarN

"We have a great team of people..." - Skipper

Well well, 22 is a good number because it's e day of my birthday!!! and it's the same day BP was born!!! Don't catch my words wrongly... BECAUSE

It's just the DAY! =)

Quite some time passed... updates??? hmmm... well.. took up a couple of events and stuffs... Kayaked today... SO TIRED!!! But well, went to sleep for a moment... and still going to sleep later... SchOoL =) Somehow every weekend, I'm wasting my time around and not able to study.. so sad huh. But Life's like this... hahahahaha... ShrUgS~

Went piping again sometime back... @ One*15 Marina Sentosa Cove. Good place I want to be with all the glamour of the yachts, schooners and dimly lighted lamp posts... LuRve the place. But it's only lucky that I get to go there now and then. Sure takes hell LoaD of effort to climb to those of their status to fit in... hahahaa... GambAtE~ She's going back to school... GooD~ Wish her BEST OF LuCk =)

Whether I'm right or wrong, there's no phrase that hits
Like an ocean needs the sand or a dirty old shoe that fits
And if all the world was perfect, I would only ever want to see your scars
You know they can have their universe, but we'll be in the dirt designing stars

Whether I'm up or down, there's no crowd to please
I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it
And if all the world was smiling, I would only ever want to see your frown
You know they can sail away in sunsets, we'll be right here stranded on the ground

Just happy to be found...You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I want to be
You make me feel so beautiful I have lost my illusions, I have drowned in your words
I have left my confusion to a cynical world
I am throwing myself at things I don't understand
Discover enlightenment holding your hand

You are... so beautiful.. =)

ASP *dedicated to You*

Ahoy

Just an extra page...

"Friendship is the safest ship in a Storm..." - CIC ridhwan

Budding from strangers to friends of such degree... We have really been through another hasty process of building a friendship. Hasty, but good. Our friendship might still be @ what seems like a young seedling... But definitely a steady one.

I hereby want to thank you for teaching me (though not much) things that are worth absorbing. All e memories, ur magics, her magics... our sudden stunness to certain issues and standing down there looking at each other with blur faces. But right down to end, We will always burst out laughing and best of all, laughing it off and let it be another challenge to overcome. Good showmanship and spirit of Brotherhood Scouting.

You live up to it...

It flows in you...

It hasn't, wouldn't and shouldn't die in you...

Good Scout.

As a fellow brother, I really think ah gong has seen your goodwill and bless you throughout your life.. Good one. Welcome to a new chapter and may ah gong and your people see you through it with utmost support, care and strength.

Don't really have much photos about us and most of them are carved in me... Just dedicated to you... EnJoY

~signed off~

ASP *Memories n Emotions*

Ahoy

It reads... 21st Yarn

"He does not give you what you pray for... but the opportunity to get what you pray for..." - Evan Almighty

Waaa... quite some time since I've last updated my blog... because someone kept bugging me to update laaa.... hahahahaha!!! hmmm.. but it has been a smooth period... except for some ups n downs... but well.. it's life isn't it???

Holidays started for a week!!! A total of 1 1/2 months of free days without homework or projects!!! A total new semester coming with total new modules to take up. woahhh...~ hope I can manage!! So I went back to camping with HA! Quite a few new faces whom I'm still trying to get used to... in fact, struggling... but well.

Was runner for Andrew's pioneer Sec... Not a very good ending but quite a good camp though... Of so many moments.. I only got a picture.. during Kidnapped... took by ShaloN! hahahaha..

Was taken during the Kidnapped.. It was quite dark... we both tried to squeezed behind this umbrella to scare the students when they came.. Oh my... you guys should have seen the moment the first batch of students came.. it was sOOoooOOO FunnY! hahahaha...

Pardon me laaa.. but I'm not photogenic.. so I dun really bother to show myself in photographs.. haha!

All along I've always like girls in 'scorpion braid'... the hair.. not them (HAHA... Juuust... joking ^^)... emit this kind of attraction to me laaa... quite cooL... Then that night, shalon told me about the braid and even showed me... hahahaha... but she can't do it by herself.. well.. hair too short and too smooth laaa (as claimed by herself)... But I was hoping one day to see her in the braid... Guess what???


HAHAHA.. she had her friend to tie the hair the other day!!! waaa.. and she took a picture to show me... ^^ Grateful Grateful! Thank you sooOoo much laaa.. It was like at that moment I was stuck to the beauty of the braid... ^^ wonderful piece of art! haaaa... :P







Waaa... three camps down... considered almost 3 straight camps... doing one after another without having the chance to recover... Last was Ridhwan's camp... Lakeside Pri.. waaa.. this camp really burnt me out mann.. from 1 question each from the campers.. to 1001 questions.. You imagine how are you going to handle this situation when you are dying halfway... ARGGggHHh~ so solution??? slack slack slack lorrr... give them as much rest as possible... but somehow they seemed to know the meaning of wasting time.. hahaha... and giving them too much rest is wasting time.. must keep them going.. well kids.. Not bad!

After the camp.. we were super shacked.. but we still had Moon's chalet to go to... so shalon and I went down to Jurong poiNt after breaking camp and got her a Nike workout towel.. It was quite nice... combination of pink, maroon... quite close to reds... But we thought it was not enough.. so following pei yun's idea.. we went to eugene's embroidery shop and embroidered her name beside the tick... the result....??? Full of noddings and very nice very from shalon!!! hahahaha.. duhh.. Halfway through, Ridhwan came to meet us... for no reason, we sat at a corner beside the traffic light beside Crawford Lane...!





See... How shacked this two people are... Help~!

Then aku tak boleh tahan laaa... took out my shades and sleep for a while...

It was a struggling 3 camps but it went well laaa... so far so good woot~

Everytime I read her blog.. the songs that played somehow tells me about what she is feeling at this period of time... I heard she still cannot forget him... well sometimes.. it's hard to put down certain things... esp things you have close to your heart for 3 years... somehow.. I do feel something for her too... Hoping I can do something for her... but deep inside.. I know I can never make the impact n impression he did on her... Well, maybe I'm over sensitive.. but who cares... ^^

~signed off~

ASP *Ohhh.. So this is how it feels like... hmmm*

Ahoy!!

It reads... 20th Yarn

" Why buy shampoo when real poo is FREE!!!! " - ASP

Hmmm... When I see her, I feel a sense of familiarity...
When I don't, I feel lost...
When she's around, I would want to look at her again n again...
When she's not, I would miss..

When I see her close with others, I feel sour...

Maybe this is how it feels like... hmmm

~signed off~

ASP *Birthdays...*

Ahoy!!

It reads... 19Th YarN

" No Sacrifice... No Victory... " - Transformers

Heh... Been quite busy for some time.. but back now blogging... ^^
Here's what I saw, heard and imagined on bus today...

Girl: So you hugged her and u guys were together after that?
Boy: Ya, Some sort of...
Girl: So it was like that?
Boy: I was rather drunk that night, so I just did what I thought was right...
Girl: So u hugged her and u both were together after that?
Boy: Ya...

Then i put on my earphones and started listening to my music... but her voice was damn loud laaa... heard things like,

Girl: Nowadays people go hotel so common... I went with (this guy's name) for a night and my mom was screaming at me..
Girl: So what if pregnant? Does it mean anyone got to be responsible for it? If so how? Say marry me????

But it was always good to concentrate on the music.. but suddenly, things started turning sour... (for whatever particular reasons..) Kpo a bit laaa...

Girl: Then how come you are attracted to her???
Boy: (Mumbles...)
Girl: Then how come you were attracted to her???
Boy: (Mumbles...)
Girl: You are telling me you like her now??
Boy: no...
Girl: Then how come you are attracted to her???
Boy: Just attracted...
Girl: How come how come???
Boy: (lowers head and mumbles...)
Girl: You go look for her now, don't touch me!
Boy: (lowers head even lower...)

Then for half an hour, the boy was putting his head down while his girlfriend screamed at him on the bus in front of my seat... The boy tried to explain some things.. but I guessed he was more submissive than his girl...

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Time past... then suddenly, I saw am improvement in the situation.. the girl began to touch his cheeks... then the boy smiled a bit... he put his arms around her.. and hugged.

Hahaha... Well, sometimes it's funny to see how couples quarrel and get together again, especially when they are so close to you... ^^ interesting day. Not to mention this guy was sleeping like a pig beside with his head drooping to my side... =.=

Today is her birthday.. tell me, anyone celebrating??? pray pray pray... maybe something good will happen... ^^ Happy Birthday girl... ^^

~signed off~